I realised yesterday that I care too much about the way in which other people perceive me. it makes me not like myself very much and its affecting my relationship. Don’t get me wrong, me and JS are the happiest and most in love we’ve ever been, I’m just letting my hang ups about my body get to me too much. I almost feel like I want better for him than me, god knows he deserves it. This isn’t me drowning in a pool of self pity, I’m just evaluating my behaviour. I need to get a grip really, I know he loves me, I know how lucky I am and  I know that now we’re back on track, nothing else matters. I just have to start acting like it. 

Pfft, being a female sucks. Swear to god. Oestrogen makes us mental.